Still

Notes from inside the noise.

  1. i know the door is locked and i check it anyway

    someone told me once that they were "so particular" about keeping their desk clean and i almost laughed. not at them. at…

  2. high-functioning means nobody asks if you're okay

    i took a call this morning with a client in a different time zone and my hands were shaking so bad i had to hold the…

  3. i stopped drinking and the anxiety got worse

    i thought quitting would fix it. thats the thing nobody tells you. or maybe they do tell you and you dont hear it…

  4. what a panic attack actually feels like

    its 3:47 am and im on the bathroom floor. i dont know why im on the bathroom floor. i wasnt sick. i wasnt going to the…